Wednesday, 27 February 2008

Holy Hart


On the 21st of December 2007 Blansjaar (http://www.blansjaarbv.nl/ ) made it possible for me to remove my 500kg Chalkstone sculpture of JC. This was also the start of a blog which turned into the subject of my first attempt to write a small autobio-story about the reason why I got to be the temporary owner of a modern relic.
I will let who ever is reading this blog know more as soon as I get to the point of publishing (or printing) this fabulous fable. Before that time I can show you some of the images on flickr: Holy hart on Flickr

NOSE 2.0


It is a great thing to be able to breathe through both nostrils… It has been a while, but after the operation everything has been going well. Except for the fact that now I can really not smell anything anymore. So I have the air…but I am waiting anxiously for my smell to kick back in… to be continued…

Tuesday, 26 February 2008

WIN-TER-Deep-pression


I have no idea why … but every year I get struck down from my usual high on life and just flatten out… This year my hibernation time was delayed and manifested itself about a month later than usual. The feeling of emotional molasses just kind of shows up and ruins a perfectly good flow or appreciation of most general things (like reaching a point of perfection (see earlier blog) or the love of my old lady…). I guess life can throw you a icy curve ball… it is strange when you know that the lion share of my lessened mood is linked to the deprivation of light, which makes me wonder why not to follow the “duck” to warmer and lighter places. Maybe next winter will be spend in a hybernatic hub that keep my enthusiasm at an acceptable level…

Monday, 28 January 2008

A state of Perfection

Have you ever had the feeling that everything around you just kind of falls into place...all at the same time? A little like Hannibals plan mixed up with an orgasmic surge of finishing a puzzle? All your little stacks combined with all the shelf space that you have been carefully structuring for about 10 years, now suddenly finds a perfectly "acceptable" state of being.

This is something that today, the 28th of January 2008, I have finally experienced.

No need for a visual...just a feeling...

D.

Tuesday, 8 January 2008

Operation (part III)

Operation (part II)

The following was recorded in writing and pictures. For maternal reasons I have done this in my native tongue...

























Sunday, 6 January 2008

Operation (part I)

The day before I get more AIR…


It is the night before my septum operation. And I am experiencing a light form of nervousness. Not so strange because tomorrow I will experience what it is like to be put down by a chemical cocktail which will make me go to sleep, make the muscles in my face go soft and which will take care of the pain of a surgeon probing around in my nose and sinuses .
This surgical intervention will hopefully give me a breath of fresh air, which will feel like a fishermen’s friend promise that is about 25 years overdue! After a simple and very short visit to the ear nose and throat doctor, a seemingly typical turn of events have lead to my current state of arrest. I am just waiting for tomorrow. Waiting for the moment to go under. Waiting for the moment I wake up… Waiting for the feeling afterwards. I really have no idea what to expect in that respect.
The same feeling crept up on me the day before the CT-scans which (ofcourse) turned out to be totally fine (see image). So where do these feelings of anxiety come from? Is it the fact that I have no idea of what is going to happen to me during the hour and a half of the surgery or is it the fact that I am afraid that something might go wrong? My trust in our medical system is such that I have total confidence in how they will treat me… but will their efforts reward me with a new way of taking in oxygen without any obstructions? I am thankful that by writing about this stuff a little, I get a little perspective on things. This procedure is so small and so common compared to all the other stuff that is going on in that hospital…. And recovery is only a couple of hours….



Let me leave this blog with some small visuals of what I thought I would be experiencing with the CT-scan and what it actually turned out to be. Tomorrow I will ask the nurse to take some pictures so I can discuss the feeling afterwards accompanied by some cool OR shots!
Long live my newly expected air intake!

Thursday, 27 December 2007

Blogging in Swe

It is the 2nd day of xmas and I am currently sitting in the old bedroom of my love’s parents… trying to work up the courage to write something worthwhile and stimulating so who ever may read this will not be disappointed by my effort to bring a close to MY 2000 and 7.
I guess, writing out a 2000 and a 7, I must be thankful for the fact that I suddenly realize(again) that I am a lucky and happy son of my mother. But when I sit down to really explain a feeling like that, I start to wonder and explore where to begin. Describing a list of discoveries and moments for others to read is the first thing that springs to mind… but seeing nobody reads this blog anyway, I can better start to explore the “rudimentary” building blocks which have so clearly revealed themselves to me over the last year and 9 months (counting back to my emergence from the bowels of DUT).


My thoughts go back to the moment when 4 JAMMING partners buy their first REAL asset… A fussball table. This table and its simple goal of playing and scoring, represents a whole lot more than just a game (I will get back to the nature and powers of this magic tool later…). It in my opinion can be seen as the start of letting go of the need to know where you are going, when we all know our drive is to do the best we can to win and score!
What I shall see as my new challenge is that I do not need to describe and block out everything for the improvement of the way JAM works. I realized that when I write something down or block something out, it will not immediately translate into truth or reason; especially not for others! Herein lays my challenge. I must carefully try to find a balance between my ability to gather information and feel when the time is right to share this information. The abundance of ideas which come to me just by association can just be thoughts which I jot down in my dummy or in my desktop notes. This pot of gold will grow and grow, but it will be up to me to see how it will trickle into existence… slowly. Timing of my trickle is crucial when I want to be part of a TEAM calling itself JAM.
I am a very lucky boy to be part of such a group of friends…they are undoubtedly my salvation. I would most likely end up as just one of those IDEA geysers who see their efforts go up in a cloud of mist, never being able to create a solid step towards realization. With my friends who understand me, and I them, it will be possible for me to realize whatever I come up with…which is a pretty amazing feeling!
What I do need to take care of is the fact that others have ideas too. And just like mine, they need to bubble up to the surface in their own particular way. Another building block for me will be that I develop a special sense which allows me to sniff out an idea and figure out the best way to make it come to the surface without affecting it too much, so it can grow into something that will be welcomed and associated upon with open arms and minds…
So totally in character I must record my first building block for 2008:
“Try to find the balance between sharing and developing an idea or even an association… once an idea is brought into a group of people at the right time, they will explore and discuss it from their own characteristic point of view and hopefully make the idea a shared goal (…which is easier to realize with a group then by yourself). A shared goal has a better chance of succeeding and the reward will be greater too!
BUT Take care!: Once you share a thought or the beginning of an idea it will get its identity and meaning from the people who breathe life into it. A combined breath equals a combined effort and a combined result… take one breath away and it will be a different effort.
So… the day before I leave with Anna for Stockholm… this is what I blog…

Sunday, 2 December 2007

My sister digs GOGOL


Even before Burning Man, Iris bought tickets for Gogol Bordello. This is the kind of music which,even to me, is new and old at the same time... Gypsy Balkan Punk Rock Sillyness! What I did find out was that my summer years of hangin' in front of the stage are definitly gone! They have been replaced by the warm embrace of a bar and trays of good will beer to make new 2 hour friends. What was made very clear this evening that both Iris and Myself remember that we are made from the same wood! I haven't laughed that much for a long time! Thanks sis! and thank you Gogol for your far off stage presence! I didn't hear much, but I am wearing purple weraing purple!



Oh yeah... Iris... a pen mous-tache is like a hangover... it reminds you of the good time you had the day before!

Sunday, 11 November 2007

Tuesday, 23 October 2007

A present for Charlotte...a fine afternoon for me!


This last saterday...I had a day off. A great feeling! Combine this with the finding of a present for Charlotte and it will end up in the american bookstore, HANAZUKI and Mevis & the Italiaander... 3 great spots whre to get great gifts. WhatI found at the non-bookstore were 3 paintings. 3 canvasses waiting to be refreshed. After I got home I finally got to do what I had in mind... this was the result:

Tuesday, 16 October 2007

Sunday, 7 October 2007

Margaretha and Cornelia



These are my new guardian angels...already helping me to survive high falls from attics and be save from general harm. I have called them Margaretha & Cornelia after my mother and they are doing well. I am trying to track down their origin...when I kno more I will introduce them properly!

Home update...



Today was the day...the day that light was created over our table! JEEEZZZ....how corney can you get!?! I realize now that I have joint the ranks of all those wh are trying to create that perfect spot. Well...today a part of that spot was finished by the ritual hanging of the lamp! Now we can finally have our dinerparties...for we can see clearly now! The dark is gone!

Sunday, 30 September 2007

ROBODOK07


The experience at Robodock last week was weird in the sense that it felt so small in comparisson to the Nevada experience (...nice observation swayze!). This does absolutely NOT mean that the efforts and inspiration were any dif'rent! The 10 year celebration of the robodok festival was a joy to walk around in, but what stuck the most on my lens was the fire pendulum! At around 2.30 some of the flaming lotus girls and a couple of other "BURNERS" wondered of to the outskirts of the festival terrain to witness the awsome sight of a remote controled blowtorch on a stick! This resulted in some nice images of afterburner effects and fire patterns.
Again... you can check it out on flickr: here

The Polaroids are scanned!


The burningmn 2007 experience can be captured beautifully by the digital eye...but to capture the spirit...you need a polaroid! heck out my results on:

Saturday, 15 September 2007

Durka Durka...



This one's 4U scott!!!

Thursday, 13 September 2007

Burningman 2007


it is late...just made a selection... put it on flickr:
My Digitals on Flickr

Hope to scan polaroids tomorrow and make small blog noises on the weekend.
Check it out!!!

Wednesday, 12 September 2007

A great deal of blogging ahead...

It is tuesday night...the 11th of September... Guy's Birthday! Happy Day My Boedha! This is the first entry of many which will be made on my new red little monster Laptop!...The blogs will tell the story of my Burningman experience with Iris, the great steps of emotional living within JAM, the new autum adventures of Anna & Dennis in their quest to fill their Habitat with suitable visual violence, links to all the promised pictures of the last half year and my explorations in the wake of ALOHA (slow cooking makes for the best sauce...). For now I will leave you with a taste of youtube madness looking back at the mega-fire-cloud at Burningman. This project was called crude awakenings and was rumoured to be the biggest purposely build man made fire ball of all time...



I will keep you posted about links of my pictures (and those of Iris) on flickr.com. If you can not wait just typ in burningman 2007...