Have you ever had the feeling that everything around you just kind of falls into place...all at the same time? A little like Hannibals plan mixed up with an orgasmic surge of finishing a puzzle? All your little stacks combined with all the shelf space that you have been carefully structuring for about 10 years, now suddenly finds a perfectly "acceptable" state of being.
This is something that today, the 28th of January 2008, I have finally experienced.
No need for a visual...just a feeling...
D.
Monday 28 January 2008
Tuesday 8 January 2008
Operation (part II)
The following was recorded in writing and pictures. For maternal reasons I have done this in my native tongue...
Sunday 6 January 2008
Operation (part I)
The day before I get more AIR…
It is the night before my septum operation. And I am experiencing a light form of nervousness. Not so strange because tomorrow I will experience what it is like to be put down by a chemical cocktail which will make me go to sleep, make the muscles in my face go soft and which will take care of the pain of a surgeon probing around in my nose and sinuses .
This surgical intervention will hopefully give me a breath of fresh air, which will feel like a fishermen’s friend promise that is about 25 years overdue! After a simple and very short visit to the ear nose and throat doctor, a seemingly typical turn of events have lead to my current state of arrest. I am just waiting for tomorrow. Waiting for the moment to go under. Waiting for the moment I wake up… Waiting for the feeling afterwards. I really have no idea what to expect in that respect.
The same feeling crept up on me the day before the CT-scans which (ofcourse) turned out to be totally fine (see image). So where do these feelings of anxiety come from? Is it the fact that I have no idea of what is going to happen to me during the hour and a half of the surgery or is it the fact that I am afraid that something might go wrong? My trust in our medical system is such that I have total confidence in how they will treat me… but will their efforts reward me with a new way of taking in oxygen without any obstructions? I am thankful that by writing about this stuff a little, I get a little perspective on things. This procedure is so small and so common compared to all the other stuff that is going on in that hospital…. And recovery is only a couple of hours….
Let me leave this blog with some small visuals of what I thought I would be experiencing with the CT-scan and what it actually turned out to be. Tomorrow I will ask the nurse to take some pictures so I can discuss the feeling afterwards accompanied by some cool OR shots!
Long live my newly expected air intake!
It is the night before my septum operation. And I am experiencing a light form of nervousness. Not so strange because tomorrow I will experience what it is like to be put down by a chemical cocktail which will make me go to sleep, make the muscles in my face go soft and which will take care of the pain of a surgeon probing around in my nose and sinuses .
This surgical intervention will hopefully give me a breath of fresh air, which will feel like a fishermen’s friend promise that is about 25 years overdue! After a simple and very short visit to the ear nose and throat doctor, a seemingly typical turn of events have lead to my current state of arrest. I am just waiting for tomorrow. Waiting for the moment to go under. Waiting for the moment I wake up… Waiting for the feeling afterwards. I really have no idea what to expect in that respect.
The same feeling crept up on me the day before the CT-scans which (ofcourse) turned out to be totally fine (see image). So where do these feelings of anxiety come from? Is it the fact that I have no idea of what is going to happen to me during the hour and a half of the surgery or is it the fact that I am afraid that something might go wrong? My trust in our medical system is such that I have total confidence in how they will treat me… but will their efforts reward me with a new way of taking in oxygen without any obstructions? I am thankful that by writing about this stuff a little, I get a little perspective on things. This procedure is so small and so common compared to all the other stuff that is going on in that hospital…. And recovery is only a couple of hours….
Let me leave this blog with some small visuals of what I thought I would be experiencing with the CT-scan and what it actually turned out to be. Tomorrow I will ask the nurse to take some pictures so I can discuss the feeling afterwards accompanied by some cool OR shots!
Long live my newly expected air intake!
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